held back but feelin fine

I'm not feeling fine realistically, I hate showing any outward sadness or say what I really want to say around my parents. I just sit there silently and it looks like I don't give two shits because internally I agree with all the stuff they say. I actually said "Yes I don't like those things about me I'm just a shitty human thing" and they said it was an excuse of some form or took it too far, whelp I replied you either get stupid pride, coward or depressed piece of shit, thats all you are gonna get arguing with me dad and bonus mom thats fucking it. I know they hate it when I'm quiet but when I talk I just make it worse, hope yall lovelies enjoy the rest of your day/night